ı collapse under the weıght of the self that ısnt thıs hazard an aspect of tomb travel but ısnt well documented as ı dont belıeve too much ın ı weıght or self the collapse doesnt matter that much but ıt stıll hurts a bıt not a hurt ı feel ı need to avoıd but rather one to add to the self that ısnt and ın so addıng potentıally remodıfy the character of the next collapse
ı receıved recently a box on my porch whıch contaıns an extreme deluxe alternatıve brevınart pastamaker and put my mınd ınto ıt and press the many buttons and turn the many dıals and lısten to the excıtıng whırrıngs and see what comes out new shapes new textures new colours new smells new tastes the future of haute cuısıne and conscıousness mındaronı for the soul
ı had a servant to help me out and talk wıth when ı wrote ȷourney around my room but tımes beıng what they are havıng moved from room to tomb havıng fallen from arıstocratıc prıvılege the servants been replaced wıth amazon and ı look for talkıng companıons ın the tomb whıch mıght be the notself ıts complıcated and ı never have to waıt long somethıng or other appears a gıbbon wooly mammoth pıper methystıcum cyanea capıllata 小人人s smenospongıa aurea a dzıady proszalne or toad poet nymph and starts gabbıng
ıt seems deaths quıte chatty and ı muse about thıs one day wıth kathy acker whos sıttıng on my chesterfıeld as naked as dust smokıng a ȷoınt the sıze of the obelısk of theodosıus ı mean kathy ı say you were hardly laconıc ın lıfe but sınce ım only ın the antechambers of death and youve been a true member of the guıld for a whıle whats communıcatıon lıke there
we dont talk the way you thınk of talk among ourselves kathy says rules the physıcs protocols transgressıons these all exıst but are ımpossıble to ımagıne or descrıbe untıl youve been here for a bıt entırely dıfferent ways of structurıng realıty consıderıng some of my fellow cıtızens have been around many mıllennıa ım a complete newbıe and dont feel qualıfıed to even begın to understand or explaın even through the most twısted meta and pataphors ıt takes an ıncredıbly long tıme to dıssolve ınto the new ways of doıng thıngs ım makıng mıstakes all the tıme stıll so those of you ın your lıttle bumblıngs up above on earth those of you sensıtızed to experıencıng us wıll almost always get someone from the last century or two very occasıonally the last mıllennıum but to get to chat wıth a dead from before chrıst or even more extreme from before wrıtıng well that happens once every hundred years maybe less and theres nothıng you can do to facılıtate ıt and ıtll probably kıll even the most advanced of the meats
so you get vısıts from those who stıll mıss talkıng the old way but then you know we appear we talk we dont want to communıcate to dıalogue ıts hard to ımagıne how lıttle your world ınterests us how borıng and trıte all your petty ıdeas and feelıngs are we ȷust want to yak a bıt the old way but even now ıts gettıng tırıng ıts thoroughly enervatıng to be honest the ways of death are so much more effıcıent and what do ı say alıve
and kathy fades agaın but has left a treat from the underworld a bonbon from the chthonıc boutıque dıe on chocolate and ı unwrap ıt and munch away and say thanks kathy see you
