ubu roi shit

i see peripherally a large billboard behind centrefield of a community baseball diamond that says capitalism something and i look directly to see what the something is and it says instead capitalmitsubishi - but capitalism can be formed by taking the first seven letters and then three of the following four but rearranged so the peripheral interpretation isn't surprising

 

then i realize that the remaining letters after we've formed capitalism - tubishi - if only a u is substituted for one of the is - can if scrambled form shit ubu* - so -  ubu capitalism shit

 

doesn't take much for the entire world to be reconfigured like this - and i wonder if someone at mitsubishi knows this and is winking at me

 

every saturday in sancta toytowns i do a minimum 18 hour fast, a microdose (.12-.18 grams) of amazonian cubensis mushrooms and a very long bath - it's the spiritual zenith of the week, a time to process the work of the past six days and orient myself to the work of the upcoming six

 

on tuesdays i do 0.3ml of cannabis oil which propels me into deep spiritoaesthetic mining tasks

 

once or twice a week i do around 40ml of very good absinthe

 

i do coffee every morning - moka pot twice weekly, the remainder filter drip - and the occasional filter drip days i permit myself to go to a cafe in the afternoon and work and do a second filter drip and suck in a bit of remote society

 

i fuck on average every five days, trail trek two to four times a week for an hour or two, walk in the city another two to four times for an hour, listen to 7-15 albums weekly on vinyl and another few digitally, watch 1-2 films per week, work on the koos|h^Qa project when i feel like it ... and the rest of the time think read and write (on average 8-10 hours/day) - other than basic maintenance tasks that's what i do in sancta toytowns

 

a surprising number of people i pass on the trails here smell of cheap smothered soap, as if they're terrified of the scent of natural sweat - i almost gag if i have to be within two metres of them

 

the dogs here - and their owners - are the most poorly behaved of any dogs i've met outside of rural india

 

of the four geodoos sancta toytowns the only place where happiness and unhappiness sometimes appear for unhappiness can't find its dance partner

 

neither happiness nor unhappiness appear in absinthia, grim pill or babelon - anger irritation frustration focus peace laughter appear - moods appear but not happiness or its twin unhappiness - but in sancta toytowns only moods and unhappiness - how to rectify without seeking happiness or negating the unhappiness

 

adaptability as a practice and response to the world can require large amounts of solitude - a meditation of adaptability - the more i'm surrounded by society the less adaptable i feel - so sancta toytowns facilitates spaces of solitude and consequently spaces of adaptability

 

so i adaptively massage the imbalanced unhappiness that appears here - i put it on a mat, apply almond oil across its meat, work it in, help it relax - in other words i don't resent it, send it away, abuse it, try to crowd it out, pretend it isn't there - i welcome it and treat it well - and in giving to it i calm it down and both unhappiness and i chill out

 

i say - try this or similar methods with all states modes orientations that lack a dancing partner - not simply if they're classically labeled negative but if they're classically labeled positive too - so if you have happiness wealth joy peace without unhappiness poverty despair that's a problem - take your joy, put it on the mat, and give it a good massage

 

 

 

* ubu naturally from jarry's ubu roi