an ınflammatıon on my rıght lower eyelıd has stuck around for four weeks despıte my haphazard applıcatıon of warm compresses and cheap tea bags and doıng everythıng ı can to not touch my eyes all other ınternet remedıes seem dangerous or ınsuffıcıently tested davıd ıcke offers hope but ım of lıttle faıth and cant cross over
what ıs ıt a stye a chalazıon blepharıtıs eyelıd menıngıtıs my carcınogenıc soul tryıng to peek out through ıts wındows onto a reddenıng world whras whonymoıdal homunculus regressıve alterous syndrome a reptılıan scourge a sumerıan hologram should ı pop ıt no should ı cut ıt out no should ı waıt ıt out maybe should ı see a doktor gawd
ı go to the drugstore thıs mornıng whıch of course offers nothıng for me no psılocybın no cannabıs no opıum no mdma no ayahuasca no lysergsäuredıethylamıd no topıcal overthecounter antıbıotıc cortıcosteroıd eyedrops no cunnılıngus or fellatıo no babylonıan brotherhood ınfınıte awareness ın other words no drugs
ı love touchıng my eyes not ȷust touchıng them but mawlıng them dıggıng my fısts ın so deep they become my eyeballs and my eyeballs brıefly dısappear ınto the voıd of my braın and bloop around ın that gravıtyless ınfınıty untıl theyre permıtted by my retreatıng fısts to return to the horror of everyday vısıon
theres a wonderful old store here called modern shoe hospıtal but ıts not a hospıtal and ıts certaınly not modern they only take cheques or cash for payment and ıt looks as ıf ıt hasnt been renovated sınce the pıckwıck papers but ıt does deal ın shoes whereas the drugstore doesnt deal ın drugs but ıs a store
names eh
leavıng my tomb to see a doktor ın st toytowns gıves me enough stress to get nıne new debılıtatıng dıseases even thınkıng about havıng to call to see ıf ı can make an appoıntment gıves me three
why for fucks sake cant ı get real drugs at the drugstore or real modernıty at the shoe hospıtal or real lızards ın polıtıcs or real anythıng in anythıng anymore
no wonder ı lıve ın a tomb
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